Thursday, March 22, 2012

anticipation



That first date... that first call... that first kiss...

Anticipation of the event is what makes it so exciting- that butterflies-in-your-tummy excited.  As a kid, anticipation of Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny would cause sleepless nights.  As I entered my teen years it was the anticipation of seeing that boy, anxiously waiting for him to notice me. 

As I met and dated Mark, the anticipation of the proposal would cause me to stop eating (at times altogether- but that is another story for another time), and  actually almost pass out on some occasions (anxiety disorder diagnosed much later in life, you see)...

Then, as a newly-wed, anticipation of buying our first home and, for us (we did a few things unconventionally,) graduating from college was a HUGE anticipation. 

Becoming parents was anticipated... and then all of those first events:  the first smile, the first laugh, the first step, the first tooth... all kinds of firsts... all anticipated, and all causing some visceral reaction - anxiety, hope, worry, love, protectiveness, excitement...

Now, it is with great anticipation that I enter into a new relationship with my husband... healing from past hurts... moving forward together.  This time, though, we are both experiencing our relationship openly walking in faith with God. This time, both of us seek the greatness of God's intention for marriage.
 
It is intended to be something great... marriage, that is...  it is intended as a gift.  Notice I didn't say easy or happy- all- the- time.  However, God intended marriage to be great.  It is with Him that it is able to be great (again, not ever easy, not always happy).

Most people will disagree, but  marriage really is intended as a three way relationship (hold on, there... not three people, but two people and one GOD).  It is also intended to last forever.  For real, no matter how impossible this may seem, it is one man, one woman, for ever.   I think the reason so many marriages don't last forever is that God isn't a part of the relationship.  I know this, because just two months ago, my marriage was ending.  I was sure of it, in fact.  I knew that I could not continue to live in a one-sided relationship.   Then an amazing thing happened...in a moment of desolation, after the realization that he could no longer do it (life, cope, heal, live) on his own, Mark accepted the truth of God, and Jesus dying for him. 

A new relationship began.

Two relationships actually, one between Mark and God... and one between Mark and me.

And it changes everything. 

Anticipate... hope... believe... love... live... laugh... pray...

So, pray for us, please, as we anticipate "A Weekend to Remember" - which  is three days of faith and marriage workshops... and anticipate that God promises to finish the great work He began... in me... in us... and in you.


picture from google faith images

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!

I hope everyone has a fun filled St. Patrick's Day!!! 

Also... be safe... don't  drink and drive- (my PSA for the night)

Friday, March 9, 2012

I've discovered...

Time wasting alert!!! I just found out about polyvore... How come no one has mentioned this to me before?!?!  Probably because everyone who knows about it is ashamed to admit that it WASTES TIME!

BUT... it is SO MUCH FUN!!!

I feel like I'm 16 again and consumed with fashion and stuff like that.

Check it out!!!

Danielle's first set

my Disney set

Katie's first set- yes, it includes JB

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

...this week...


It is amazing how GOD  ROCKS!  Like, totally, every time.  I can't tell you how often I'll be reading something for my faithshare group, and then come across the same passage in my marriage class, and then the same passage will come up again with a friend, and then I'll read a devotional...and, yep, there it is AGAIN. 

The message is clear, folks, nothing is an accident and God is talking all the time.  It just takes patience and paying attention. 

Life is chugging along here in Virginia... it's winter, then spring, then winter again, all in one day... and this happens several times a week, it seems.  We have gone from 60 degree mornings to 50 degree afternoons to a thunderstorm around 9, and snow the next morning at 7... we are all feeling a tad bipolar, here, lately.  That being said, I officially have spring fever, and am looking forward to cleaning out the closets and stuff like that.

So- there just isn't a whole lot to report on, other than, we are all hanging in there, and trying NOT to be bipolar like the weather.  However, 3/5ths of this house is slightly autistic, so that is kind of hard to avoid - being bipolar, that is.  We have a very LABILE environment, here, to say the least!

God is smart, though, and I know it's all with purpose.  We are just doing the best we can.